trend in HIV that’s been around since even before we knew enough about the virus to have trends. For more than 25 years, most of the queer communi- ty has shifted the “blame” for HIV to groups with diminishing amounts of power. Through all I ’ve observed a distressing ‘ _this shifting, though, people living with HIV haven’t had the luxury of “passing the buck”. for the virus. Perhaps it’s time to stop finger-pointing so we can focus on making a real difference. It makes a certain sense that as a broader community we’d try to avoid any part of the emotional were having gay sex “on the down low,” contracting HIV, and infect- ing their wives or girlfriends who HIV doesn’t care “aboutthe history of safer sex, or the politics ofwho’s able weight of a virus that has had a severe impact on several genera- tions. It’s not absurd to expect that people have consistently found scapegoats amongst the madness I that is the history of the pandemic. Still, we can’t afford to overlook even one sliver of the effort to reduce HIV’s harm in Vermont by focusing on the hype over thoughtful contemplation. Why do we continue to scapegoat people I who are “more risky” than us? Why do we judge our own risk to be less, if we’re having the same sex, sharing’ the same drugs? Unfortunately, every moment we focus on other people’s risks, we lose focus on our own. I speak every daylwith people who are living with HIV and.AIDS, many ‘ of whom “never thought itwould happen” to them. , ~ The lightning rods for fear of HIV transmission have evolved since the early 1980’s, when gay men were thought to be the sole people affected by HIV and AIDS. I Haitians, injection drug users, hemophiliacs, sex workers, youth, heterosexual Africans: all have home the role of the feared or the vilified. Rarely does the media focus on the individual and the choices we do or don’t have the power to make. This past year, some African American men were forced into this role. These were men who to scapegoat whom. did not know of their HIV status or infidelities. Media coverage was intense: were all African American men being unfairly blamed for transmitting HIV, or was this a real widespread untold ' risk for their partners? Similarly, the story of an unstoppable “supervirus” in New York City this past February turned out to be a hollow. specter. Coverage compared one man’s boudoirito a swirling cauldron of viruses, culminating in a strain of _ HIV resistant to drugs and pro- gressing to severe illness in mere months. Our scapegoat here was ‘a single gay man in Manhattan, who was ‘purported to be using the intemet and crystal meth to invite other guys into his dungeon where sex and HIV were swapped freely and frequently. These stories provided easy opportunities to rationalize that, for instance, because we’re not running meth-fueled sex clubs out of our basements, we’re pretty safe. Those months of media furor were months we weren’t talking about how all of us can reduce our risks, regardless of our gender, race, or relationship status. What we often overlook in these short-terrn blame blitzes are crucial connections to the risks all of us may or may not be taking.‘ So you don’t have a dungeon. Are you fooling around without a bar- rier or condom? Do you share needles? If you are living with HIV, are you potentially exposing yourself to other strains of HIV? Consider the ways in which you are at risk, as well as the risks you’re avoiding. Recently, Vermont CARES has been more often serving younger gay men. I can’t speak to why gay guys in their twenties are becom- A ing infected these days despite (or perhaps regardless of) 25 years of safer sex messages directed toward them. I asked a sage friend, who’s been living with HIV for years, what he thought I about recent infections in Vermont. We discussed the stan- dard theories: that condom-pro- moting messages are tired, that safer sex is no longer chic, that fewer social options increase iso- lation and depression, or that pro- tecting yourself loses importance when the virus is “more treatable.” Summoning patience and com- passion, he gently summed up the outcome. He reminded me that though barebacking may ‘seem ' more sensual or even practical than using protection in sex, daily lifelong drug regimens are expo- nentially more tiresome than being safe every time you share needles or have sex. HIV doesn’t care about the history of safer sex, or the politics of who’s able to scape- goat whom. It does no good to pass blame for HIV infection onto any group or individual. It won’t advance HIV treatment and care, prevent the spread of the virus, or advance social progress or understanding of HIV and AIDS. 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